10月29日~~

I'm going to attend my high school graduation day .. 

the only thing different is.. 

I'm not attending as a graduate.. 

but as a spectator

这种感觉

是无法形容的无奈

说出来

也只好乖乖憋着眼泪

心里闷了很多下

。。。。。。。 

始终

我还是太感性了

太多太多的回忆

非常不舍得毕业

这一切就这样将结束了

离开后。。。

要坐下来说句话也难了

已经多久没和ex同班同学好好说话了

“熬夜”这首歌

。。。
我的心突然揪起来了

妈说。这是个很轻松的歌。。

可是。。

我却笑着流眼泪。。。

啊~这是想念啊~

每一词每一句

都是属于我的回忆。。我们的回忆

只是笑着告诉自己。。

都做过了这一切

该满足了

却不愿意放手。。。。

他们说。。

回去干嘛？

我说。。

看他们哭啊

（其实心里很明白。。只是想假设自己毕业的样子。。那么简单而已）

Me VS Cambridge Day 2

It was actually yesterday
but wasn't convenient enough to go online to write about that hahahhaa

anyway
panicked..
pressure level was so high ... (dad kept saying about how much faith he has in me, and that.. is really scary)
I almost cried..

kept feeding myself with organic chemistry both AS and A2 for the whole morning
and didn't have time to go through maths except for exponential function
....

the interviewer has a very firm chemistry background
and I don't have much faith ...

until .. I met the previous interviewee ..
she was all smiles ..
and she told me .. that the whole interview was really good.. the interviewer is nice
and how ... he kept asking her to do maths and stuff and they spent 15 minutes talking bout personal stuff
...
that is definitely a relief

Pressure wore off..
UNTIL...
I got to meet the interviewer Mr John Raffan
I was expecting a lot of chemistry questions
and then , he told me
Sidney Sussex college's main focus is on mathematics..

I almost fainted..
what .. -w- ...
I did so much ....

anyway ..
yea..
sketch the graph
integration
differentiation

i would have done better if i actually did my A2 maths revision
so i was scared i mess up the formulas u know
...
but in the end ..only 1 question was left undone
and for my sketch the graph ....
i remember the previous interviewee told me there is one graph that is hard to sketch
so ..
in the end ..
I think it's the one where u have to derive twice and think twice before u draw
 lucky for me.. I've learned this technique during mock interview
and I did saw some positive comment that he wrote for me in his reference paper
and I'm like YAY ^^

and he asked me this chem engineering related question
all he needed to say was : This is actually related to mathematics
and DING .. that is a hint enough for me to answer
and well some other logic questions.. but it was suffice

anyway ..
after that he gave me a physics question
which i KNEW i did before
mr. kenny taught us before
BUT>>>>>>
I forgot how to do
yay ==
dummy ugh...

Mr. Kenny told me afterwards that apparently he let us do that question because..
he heard of this question 3 years ago ... and believe it or no..it's from an applicant coming for cambridge interview

NOOOOOO~~~~~

But anyhow..
it was a good try :)
met some nice people along the way :)

really good

I'll settle with birmingham for now I think
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

Me VS Cambridge Day 1

Written test day 

only 21 people applied for chemical engineering in Malaysia were there 

from which 

only 16 people picked the exact same course as me
-- Chemical Engineering via Engineering 

Met some people 

I thought I was already crazy in fact I'm not the only one ... 

hahahahahha 

science student mostly have a few choices in common: 

like mine: 

Cambridge, Imperial, UCL 

most art stream students also have a few choices in common: 

like: 

Cambridge, LSE, UCL 

this itself.. is a statement to proof that .. 

I don't see my hope much more 

... 

other than meeting some people from my college: 

Including a 14 year old graduate who scored 4 A* 

A head prefect from Cempaka, who did really well in exam or so I've heard
another girl sitting behind me, whom I've met in MUN 

and a korean guy named Justin, July intake 2014 .... self learn further maths...

all of which kena shortlisted ... 

hmmmm .... 

To top it for.. 

there's a lot of people who got full JPA scholarship for college.. 

hmmmm ... 

I'm wondering what I was doing there ... 

so anyway .. 

for TSA.. it was a 90 mins MCQ ... 

so general .. like english SPM question.. 

but tougher... 

and some maths application question ...  

out of 100.. most people will score around 50 ... in average 

that's why .. I can't tell how I did ... 

except that I was left with 5 questions or so ... when the time ended 

and had to simply shade the answer hahhahaha 

For the next 30 mins immediately .. 

was an essay question 

that time.. I was actually baffled.. with mind full of logic and focus on TSA 

the questions are very general .. like english essay 

but NEVER treat it like english essay... 

u MUST state examples .......... 

the essay question I chose was: 

Describe the potential of renewable resources in the next hundred years.. 

Very SPM right? 

but WRONG... 

for Solar energy .. 

I have to state only 1% of the solar energy was used ... 

the new breakthrough for solar panels where 144 atoms of gold was added to increase efficiency 

the possibility of solar powered handphones

75% of  the earth is covered in water... 

tidal energy 

how hydroelectric method was used... 

like the run-by-river method... 

the pumped-storage method.. (which I describe as a very efficient method)

biomass.. where energy is still in the domestic waste

and the new breakthrough where industrial chemical waste can be converted to energy too 

palm oil in malaysia ... for a substitute of fuel oil ...

the plantation is also very vast.. 

bla bla bla ... 

etc etc etc ... 

only 30 mins .. 

so i didn't bring any conclusion ... hahahahha 

anyway ... 

if i survive this whole cambridge thing.. 

I would be the idol of my own -w- 

interview tomorrow.. 

prepared for it being very very academic ... 

got my lesson from the mock interview.. 

my interviewer is very chemistry based.. 

prepared for lots of organic chem questions for god knows what reason hahahhaha 

die.... 

but content :) 

only 90 applicants in total for Malaysia (excluding med and vet students)

and I'm one of them :) 

Happy ^^ 

10月22日~~

Halo :)
又一科过去了

依然希望。。
付出能有所收获~

我从来没有那么认真地读过bio
重新做了一大帖笔记
用掉了整本foolscap paper
再来，
把一整本比字典还厚的 past year question 啃完

在飞机的6个小时内
我狂做了5个小时半吧？
其中20分钟花在吃饭
另外10分钟就当作我去上厕所哈拉好了
真的是。。
做到傻料@@

更明确的说是
我不相信自己拿不到A
前两次的考试
竟然都只拿到 High B
不管我差多少分拿到
还是有那么点点的不甘心

Imperial 终于回信了！
起码我知道他们还有在考虑着哈哈哈哈
好过连考虑的机会都没有

去日本的时候
收到了
University of Newcastle的 conditional offer
昨天晚上也收到他们的 conditional scholarship apply letter
$1500 而已~
爸爸还是说这是我的 cushion (虽然我真的也把它当成cushion,呵呵)
conditional offer AAB 嘛~行啦  ^^
（讲是那么讲，人家可是 UK No.7 in Chem Eng course）

老豆说，最少也拿个 Imperial 回来
UCL也不错
我眼睛睁得好大 这种 Top college O.O
我敢 apply 已经是很神奇的事情了
要拿到~。。还不简单

Cambridge 的话。。。。
呵呵呵呵~。。。你我都知道。。。
机会渺茫到几乎看不到:P
虽然这几天还是有在 做research
研究了 ex interview question
很多奇奇怪怪的问题
整本书贴了便利贴
还是觉得。。。。。。。。 hmmmmmmmm
.......
怎么可能  = =

这情况就好像去年参加 public speaking competition 一样
第一轮过关，学校派我作代表，开心！
（aka ... personal statement accepted）
第二轮过关，进入 Top 50 ，神奇不可思议
（aka... invitation to written test exam and interview）
第三轮。。。。。。。。 进不到可依然很开心哈哈哈哈哈
(aka... unknown future :) ... yet I know the answer ..... )




今天走过很多人身边，看着别人翻翻校刊
心里有很棒的感觉
:)
Hope the yearbook brings you reading pleasure^^
因为这本校刊，开始对海报页面设计有所心得
每次翻开杂志，开始出奇地认真，研究别人怎么设计。
用什么 function ...
然后告诉自己， mm 我也可以做到？或 mm 有难度 ~

哈哈哈~



♥

waiting for my own copy of the yearbook :)

10月11日~~

An offer from University of Birmingham :)
(Rank No. 6 in the UK for chem eng course)
came yesterday 11pm
I just clapped and said : YES!

this is AMAZING :D
not to mention ... I MIGHT be able to take a business module along with my course
everything seems worth while ^^
At least .. someone wants me :)

I'm thrilled that I have someone to share the news with
my family, friends, and liang :)

They say on the radio today 73% of M'sia's youth aren't pleased with their jobs
cuz they chose the wrong course ....
I hope I'm not one of them .. I hope I'm on the right track
I really do :)

(Received an email from Cambridge university, need to send over some mail to the UK... hmm )
(Preparation of interview can wait (for a while) ... )

Jiayou everyone :)

10月9日~~

An email from Cambridge itself.. saying that I've been shortlisted for an interview
....
made my day :)

that means.. me and 2 other classmates are lucky enough.. to be interesting people :)
I'm flattered and thrilled :)
though the chances are low... and the stakes are high ..
and my interviewer is amazingly scary ...
but ..
I will do my best ~

AND .. not to mention my other colleges..
do well in AS please HYT ><
and you'll be fine :)
FOCUS! JIAYOU!

10月7日~~

今天收到 Cambridge 的 email!!
my goshhh
被邀请去interview ^^
YAYYYY ~~
虽然我们都知道
chances are one in s million
但是，过了第一关，感觉挺不赖的
^^
因为那代表这
我那一面personal statement
那一面自我介绍
足以让他们对我感兴趣
尽管，只是2A*2A (刚刚好)还是来给我interview ^^

将要interview我的人
是一个拥有28 年教学经验的 cambridge lecturer
specialised in science and chemistry (uhoh)
他写了很多 chemistry textbook for A levels  (uhoh)
除此之外，他是一个行政人员

regina的 是 一个 major in zoology的人
albert的比较恐怖 senior resercher in science, lecturer in trinity hall (cambridge 已经很好了，那还是cambridge 最厉害的college)，写了20多分research paper。。。

所以。。
我没有很惨 =)

也因为这样，imperial可能也对我感兴趣  ><
如果真的是这样。。那会很棒

feeling happy and excited =)



#充满斗志

10月3日~~

最后一天college
缺席者上5位。
原因很简单。。
2个小时的课，还有其中两个人。
只需要来1个小时
那干嘛还来？

感慨？
还好吧~
感觉上SAM的学生会比较感慨
就这样我们变成了senior
就这样要和新交的朋友说再见了~

2个月内，
会有零散的大考
然后就上课了~

目前ed board的东西
还没处理完~
琐碎得来，又挺 重要~

开心的事~
今天“弟弟” （Albert自称是我的弟弟，哈哈哈哈）
买了巧克力  :D
nomnomnomnom :D
太棒了！dairy milk oreo chocolate :DD

他说，原以为可以用巧克力买我们的时间
却没成功
没有啦~~~~~~~~

只是突然有些事情要做而已~

渐渐地，
和这帮人有了感情
默契也渐渐建立起来了

但抵不过中学的友情~
那感觉很浓郁~却又并非强烈~
感觉温馨的过去~
依然是我紧抓牢地记忆~

今天和 Jamie, cassindra 吃午餐
meghan半路离开了~
joeyee不能留下来
poornima缺课
albert 总担心我一个人吃午餐  :P
所以知道我留校都会问我和谁吃饭~

俺怎么可能一个人吃午餐？
但是呢~偶尔的独处~也挺不错  =)


前两天 mock interview for cambridge
感觉很不真实~
我知道不应该紧张~
但是。。就那么情不自禁地~~
interview我的人是 一个 mathematician
他一眼都没读过我的 ps
（所有的准备都泡汤了~亏我前一天狂读 chem engineering news.. 化学工程上的突破。。。还一直和朋友分享，笑爆他们~【当然，他们也感兴趣，呵呵呵~】）
他就问我maths 的问题

其实。。。
真的不能准备
哈哈哈哈~
但非常 academic，
如果你不了解你自己整年在学什么，
就完了。

就好像，一份数学大题，分了很多小题。。。
他直接跳到最后一个小题。。
让你慢慢思考之间的小题。。。
得到最终答案~
太微妙了~

当然，我也只是尝试而已  =)
chances are one in ten thousand perhaps?


今天看到全球大学的league board
发现，30名以内的。。。
我申请其中3间了。
天？我是否疯了~~~
1. Cambridge (冷笑)
2. Imperial (工程师的梦想学校)
3. University College London (又老又大又geng又在市中心)

AS 倒数12天
加油  =)


=)
live  up to what you believe in :)