8月24日~~

Fascinating to unbox treasures which were at one point deemed "of utmost value" that we could neither donate nor dispose

Aside from the things that did have value like clothes, bags and shoes, which only took up a box..

The rest brings a smile to my face

I see notebooks, sketchbooks, materials for arts and craft, handcrafted goods 

I see pamphlets, books and boardgames

Also I see lots of trinkets and memorabilia scattered around. Funny how little things like these remind me of my past life there.

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So.. are these still considered "treasure"?
Financially - no. But it does make the heart full and spark joy. 

A reminder of the independent life I've had for 7 years, a soul searching journey
before I moved back to Malaysia and went back to co-living

This serves as a good reminder of what my core personality was at one point

8月23日~~

Picture a wave. In the ocean. You can see it, measure it, its height, the way the sunlight refracts when it passes through. And it's there. And you can see it, you know what it is. It's a wave.

And then it crashes in the shore and it's gone. But the water is still there. The wave was just a different way for the water to be, for a little while. You know it's one conception of death for Buddhists: the wave returns to the ocean, where it came from and where it's supposed to be.

The Good Place

8月18日~~

Met 3 ex-consultants in Zalora thus far. All of them said the same thing, better work-life balance and pace + sense of fulfillment from implementing something new

 This makes me :)

These 3 weeks have been amazing, meeting people and understanding the business operations. No one hammering on my (virtual) door saying, get this done in the next 30 minutes, I'll check-in to review in 15 minutes. I am enjoying this :) 

My goal is to build something that is modular now too. And that means getting agile trained. 

Initially I thought my imposter syndrome will kick in soon, but hey, it turns out it's not too bad!

8月16日~~

I'm usually here when I need to self-reflect, usually in conjunction with a life event

Today I spent a significant portion of time to understand my own "driving forces"

I first heard about this as I read "Surrounded by bad bosses". At that point I didn't give it that much thought, until the past few days when I've been given a chance for a new opportunity. I started to think about what drives me? 

The DISC model only tells me how I would behave in situations, and not why I would action on something. 

Besides I'm usually surprised at my own decisions, that I come to realise that perhaps I'm not someone who I perceive myself to be? 

I think that my 2 strongest driving force is probably aesthetic and social, against the other 4 - theoretical, utilitarian, individualistic, traditional. 

I'm writing it here so I remember the next time I encounter a life decision. 

Of course, all things should be done in moderation, i.e. there are boundary conditions in life that makes me say "no" to things, now that I'm an adult. Hence, I'm trying to turn up a notch on the other 4 lesser driving forces. 

Though the boundary conditions are lower than I suspected. So I started my job at Zalora, turns out work-life balance did play a factor, and it's something I'm willing to "pay" for.   

Anyway, have an interview tomorrow. I'll do my best and if everything goes well, I guess there'll be more changes in the future.