6月25日~~

Came across this quote and thought how it absolutely captured the essence of how I'm feeling lately. 

And it is wonderful :)

6月23日~~

My baby kicks at night, or rather that's when I felt it. 

What used to feel like a flutter now feels a bit more powerful. 

It's 11pm and my husband is fast asleep

Yet here I am after a long work day, smiling ear to ear at this special moment that I share with my little baby boy inside me.  

6月17日~~

Wavering ambition

...

I find myself happy with what I have, 

Struggling to do more than I should 

It seems like I'm perfectly okay to be average

And starting to say "no" or "I'll do this tomorrow" or "he won't notice"

It's an odd colour on me, 

I've always been a hard worker,

I've always gone the extra mile, 

I've always tried to be comprehensive. 

And only functioning during working hours feel like I'm cheating the system. There's no more training/reading/learning after work. 

Just brain rot. 

And thinking maybe this should be it, maybe this is life, maybe i don't need to have a "fulfilling career".

It could also help the hormones talking. 

6月11日~~

The daily mishaps of a pregnant lady. 

Today I tried to do time difference maths. 

Thailand is 1 hour behind Malaysia

And the meeting starts at 8am Thailand time

Which is supposed to mean 9am Malaysia time

But I thought it was 7am, luckily I made the mistake first before waking up too early 

But the C levels saw my mistake and corrected me

I'm so embarrassed....

6月10日~~

Being a bloated pregnant lady impacts my work quality. 

Just today, right after work I felt so bloated I walked to the pharmacy to get pills and came back. 

The walk didn't help, and the pills only helped mildly. 

I couldn't focus at work, it was a struggle. 

I left work early, with hopes I get better after some rest and I can get work done

Unfortunately, things are still bad after dinner. 

And I still can't focus. 

I watch another pseudo-deadline slip through my fingers

It's not serious to miss one of these, but they tend to accumulate. 

I'm a little sad that I'm like this now, and I am always optimistic that things will get better that I don't delegate tasks away. I don't want people to feel I'm using pregnancy as an excuse, not that people have been saying that. 

But as someone who strives to do her best, it's tough.