2月12日~~

Perfect :)

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Yesterday evening, I was telling KY how I was worried that EY hasn't sent an offer letter to me yet .. Without that, my stay here is not official.

He pulled me close and told me not to worry

"Have they replied your email yet?"
"No. But my friend hasn't received it either"
"Are you sure?"

We played a game of pick-up sticks after that chat
It was the best 1 pound we've ever invested thus far
I played "soft pop hits" on Spotify while we played
Probs also to muffle our shit-talk from our neighbours.

Those games always bring the worst part of us out.
Totally worth it

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Around 11 pm, after we finished playing, I checked my phone
Lo and behold, there's that EY Bristol offer letter

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Did you know, months ago, I was at the same spot,
just as I received my Barclay's offer
I received my EY assessment centre as well?

I remember feeling confused, frustrated
He said "Why not? You've worked so hard on it anyway."

The location, the job scope. It was everything I wanted.

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I told KY somewhere along the lines of "说曹操曹操就到 我的EY offer letter 拿到了 "

I was happy and went over to hug him.
I told him to "Come, dance with me to rejoice!"
we laughed as we are both in desperate need of the washroom after that long game of pick-up sticks

My Spotify list was still playing
"Perfect" by Ed Sheeran
It's just one of those moments in life where you felt like you're in a movie

I didn't know I was relieved
until I started sobbing
"Darling, I'm staying"
were the first words.
"I must be the luckiest man on earth to hear you say those words twice"
We laughed and I cried (I swore he teared up a little, though he wouldn't admit this)

We slow danced to the song until it finished
He held me close
Everything felt real.

The intermission of my life
is over.

Thanks, darling. :)

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It's reading week, I should start working on my next deadline.
Oh ya, I've finished my unicorn and posted it home :)
Also, I've digitally illustrated 4 miniature scientists. Probs should get myself an instagram account for my creative outlet. huehue

2月1日~~

Went out with the lads at lab for drinks
Definitely out of my comfort zone

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In Year 1, I turned down almost every invite to drinks
I just simply like to stay at home in the middle of the night

Since I'll be staying for another 2 years or so
might as well get into the culture :)

Starting to get closer to some of my peers, people in the labs who are actually non-Malaysian
Once again, it's rare for me to do that, mainly because I don't join them for drinks

There are a lot of small talk when I talk to people older than me
and I'm still working on that British humour of mine
It'll get on as time goes by

But as for my peers, they're more real in some ways
probs cuz it's more relatable

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Lot's of good news these few days happening to the people around me
and I'm sincerely happy for everyone of them
people getting jobs, getting into relationships, research direction being more defined
If I'm a sim I'll probably be walking in a happy way that it almost seems goofy and dancy

Planning ahead calms me down etc
On top of that, I'm actually going to finish a coursework 2 / 3 days before the deadline
very interesting, this is so unlike me

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Found a new musical soundtrack to enjoy "Dear Evan Hansen"
My newfound addiction is right next to "The Waitress" which I still listen to daily

I still can't believe I'll be watching it soon ♥

"Dear Daddy Long Legs" was relatively short lived, probs cuz I was also creeped out by the way she proclaimed her love to her "Daddy". Damn, I never saw it that way when I read the book at a younger age, not till I heard the soundtrack.


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Some high school alumni made this cool website for the other alumni's to locate themselves on the worldmap
That's actually a pretty cool concept. If everyone does that, it's going to be one huge red pin on the map given the head count at my school.

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Also, I'm finishing up my crotchet unicorn
It'll probably be done after the weekends

Right now it doesn't have hair. it looks so bald.

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This afternoon, I was so frustrated with my coursework I took a nap
2 hours later, I woke up. Subconsciously feeling content and relief and loved.
I realized I dreamed of him. Though I have no idea what the dream was about. But I do remember feeling happy.

If 生死轮回 is an actual thing, how lovely would it be for me to suddenly feel content because of things I've done in this life?

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It's 2am in the morning now,
I've missed a lot of snow falls in London

He's coming over tomorrow :)
Weekly meet-ups are indeed the best part of the week

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