it all went by so fast
legit high speed (rail)
I have to give credits to them
They really know how to surprise the interns
dropping bombs every morning
and I don't know what to expect
one moment i'm calling a huge list of people
another moment i'm writing a legal document worth more than 5 mil
subtly and steadily, i'd be working OT or working from home with my bosses and bosses of my bosses etc
then I'll realize the "wall makeover" was more than just sticking papers on the wall and rather internal design
after that .. I'm sent over to meet pegawais to know more about the state culture
before you know it
I'm all packed up for a trip down south that only escalated to a 2D1N trip instead of a day trip this morning
By this rate, I'm going to give my parents a heart attack wei
I am trying to keep up with my personal life once again
and that includes designing
which makes it quite hard
cuz I know how long that will take me
and I doubt I can commit as much as I want to
without a doubt
I don't regret this
the team is great and supportive!
They never forced me into doing anything but they gave me absolute trust when I was delegated tasks
I felt like an employee than an intern
which was exactly what I was looking for :)
Can't wait for the new interns to come in!
Mostly cuz I know all of them :3
and I get to drop the surprise bomb on their first day of internship :3
but also a bit ganjiong
because that also means i'll be switching teams
and the wall design proposals need to set place ...
by the end of the week
hot damn
This morning at the general meeting, I did a really quick headcount on the commercial and technical team of MyHSR
...
the team is way smaller than expected
for a project of this scale
yet the amount of people they reject is also crazily insane
but I like the feel of the working environment
definitely very different from UEM
mostly because of it's size
and because it just started
took me a while to fully realize this
start-up ish company
with a huge vision, and has crazy expectations
much ....
challenge
in a very 犯贱 way
I like this
I like the challenge
oh man ... this is bad
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Went out with wei liang over the weekend
When I told my friends
I can hear what i'm saying
and all I wanna tell myself is "this is such a toxic relationship yt, this is just bad..."
to be friends again,
is going to be an emotional challenge
which proves to be grueling for a sentimental person like myself
I'm going to need all the courage I have
4 years of my life has gone by,
3 years in love with this fellow
and 1 year (current) to recover from a heartbreak
when Scott told me at the beginning of the year, to take a break in my 2nd year,
I was quite doubtful, thinking I'm much stronger than that
and I definitely won't dwell on a person who isn't in the same country as I am for a whole year
(c'mon man.. that's just not sane)
Now that operational definition has been proved
HAHAHAHHAH oh wells
The conclusion of the meet up in short was
what we want and what we could have are two different things.
I asked him to made his choice, and he replied "It won't be fair to ask you to wait for me"
有缘无分，来日有缘相见
ironic isn't it?
the amount of effort we've invested in 1 person
the amount of emotions we've wholeheartedly poured into 1 soul
being completely vulnerable
and learned to accept love and to love
that .. takes a lot of courage
now this is all just a lesson to take away
so the same mistake doesn't happen again
I don't have that many 4 years in my life man
this makes me think a lot
once again,
if I can't picture that person in the next 5 years of my life
I probably shouldn't be with him .... right?
but then, to ask for someone to stand by you .. for 5 years .. let alone 10 years
is such .. a hard favour to ask
难为 到爆
thanks rynn
for all the 开导 when I was on the verge of breaking down ..
la vie en rose
