I shrivel at the thought and I call for help. I guess there's never a better time to grow than at the age of 28.
It is also funny how people find the need to tell me they've been doing decks for 10 years, but for some reason I'm okay telling off people of a rank above, but never two ranks above. Interesting
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Update:
I did a 7k run, reflected on myself. Realised I should be proud and that it's okay. I have done my best and have gotten here faster than I thought. It's okay and it's gonna be okay. Per's words come to mine "we always say we're not going to make it, yet we always do. Have trust that it will be okay."