It's like I've never left :)
搬家了
到这城市不熟悉的角落
和熟悉的面孔过着熟悉的生活
在忙碌中抽出了今天休假
头痛了一整天，终于不再固执，终于用了panadol
而现在已经快10点晚上了
might as well 再给自己多一些时间
在这个空间继续抒发心情
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这个星期五就开始induction了
有多少人问过我： Are you ready for Year 2?
我反问自己： Am I?
大家早就过了为了读书而上课的年龄
需要拼搏的是，大学以外的commitment
ICMS为我打开了很多不同的门窗
让我明白，I've always been trapped in a box
却同时也会试问自己
What is my ultimate goal in life?
I just want to be happy and the people around me to be happy
以前是，现在也是
朋友的一句话却点醒了我。。。
选择elective的时候
I was stuck between: Environmental Engineering OR Finance and Accounting
Environmental Engineering
是我的兴趣
是我的兴趣
water purification, air filtration
是我personal statement的主题
也是我继续呆在化学工程系的坚持
然而
Finance and Accounting
是我离开 chem eng 的门路
And I KNOW engineering is not my end goal
我的初衷 ？ Business in Green Technology
到最后选择了后者，朋友说 ：So you've given up on your green technology belief?
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同样的朋友告诉我 ：Yee Ting, I think you're lost in life
To be honest... I think I am
being busy and have a clear career goal
doesn't mean that I know what I want in life
I screwed up my last relationship
the guy whom I thought I would be with for a longer time
and I barely spent time with him, only twice in summer.
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
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这个学年给自己一个目标，就是要跨出另一个框框
I've been with Malaysians my whole life.
It's time.
从何下手?
就要看这星期六日的freshers fair 吧 :)
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感情这回事，
It's apparent that I'm still not ok :)
I need a lot of alone time
I'm broken but I never had the time to think and heal
I need to cry properly
Maybe a bit of drinking
but mainly ..
I need a shoulder to cry on .. an ear to hear me out....
but the thing is ....
who?
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Now I know even if I'm really busy and seem like I need a lot of help ....
Who cares? :)
Who bothers? :)
Who has the guts to ask me how I'm doing and then say ... alright I'll help you out..
People can do the former, but it takes a gem and the right person to say the latter.
and what's worse ? Idk if people like that exists anymore :')
jia you .
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和不熟悉的人分享自己最近爱上的歌
是如此奥妙的事
我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人 我以为这就是我所追求的世界 然而横冲直撞 被 误解被骗 是否成人的世界背后 总有残缺
