Here I am still holding on :)

Here I am still holding on :)

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Monday, January 28, 2019

1月27日~~

Taking the train from terminal to terminal
I wonder what you're doing now or
what you did when you're in my spot taking fortnightly train rides much more often than I do

I replayed my Spotify playlists over and over again
Read my books, study a little, play some games, talk to you

Talking to you..
The little joys of life :)

How I yearn for the weekends to come
You're always making sure that I enjoy the weekends, no matter if I'm here or I'm there
You cooked meals for me, take me around town, hug me to sleep

You booked tickets to The Waitress for us
You watched Singin in the Rain and all the videos I made you watch with me
You danced silly with me

This afternoon, you told me that everytime you hold me close
you felt like we were in a picture drawn by puuung
the kind that was seen from an angle high up
where we're small and with lots of space

and I said to myself "yes, like nothing else matters but us"

thanks darling :)
for giving me the perfect weekend 
for telling me that you love me
at every random time you could find 

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Tuesday, January 15, 2019

1月15日~~

It's nice having some time for yourself occasionally
I cherish those long walks to home and taking hot showers

Today I had quite a bit of time thinking about
the bits and pieces of my life for the past 23 years
The memories that I cherish the most with my loved ones

I think about them when I was walking home from an unproductive run
I closed my eyes when I was in the shower today
feeling relaxed and at peace from the mild exercise I've had

I opened my eyes, it was definitely less than 3 minutes
I smile thinking what a good life I've had there

Funny, how half a day of lone time can help me internalize the emotions in me

going for my 2pm lectures soon.
good life indeed



Friday, January 11, 2019

1月11日~~

Winter went away in a blink of an eye
Soon enough, it went from 4 assignment deadlines to 1 assignment deadlines left
And right now, it's colder than winter

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It's Friday 1.08pm
I haven't had a better schedule in such a long time
despite the coursework deadlines
 I feel a little relief

All of a sudden ...
I miss my friends
I miss my family
I miss him

I haven't been calling home very often
once a week maybe
but last week seems to be a blur, so I probably skipped that a bit
My dad is feeling down these days

I can't help but feel bummed too

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At the end of winter hols
before he left
he made me a huge (and I mean gigantic) pot of fried rice
in preparation of my upcoming design project deadline

as a result, I didn't have to cook Maggi for the next few days
For that, I'm grateful to have him

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Something about food always strikes me to heart

I was watching 周杰伦's 开不了口 MV again
the one that was a remake

Of course, I cried again,
at the scene when the dad was there to cook the daughter a meal

It reminds me of the time when my dad was here in London
the first 3 years when I moved in
he cooked for me while I was out running errands
he helped me with groceries and all that
I'm definitely a huge daddy's girl

Even during the summer
I spend quite a lot of time interning instead of spending time with him
On summer nights, my dad stayed up till 11pm, he usually sleeps at 9pm
When I asked him why he simply said because you're here dear

Sometimes when I'm free (aka not designing, I think I had 3 clients then)
I spend my time lying on his belly watching the TV series he's watching with mom or playing with my phone

All these little things
make me want to turn back time

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In the meantime, I feel that KY is planning for my bday
I'm quite surprised, given that it's more than a month away :o
I thought my birthday is more like a ... "Hey, wanna grab dinner this weekend?" kind-of ritual

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I just put used the countdown app again on my phone
7 days to go :)

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Did you know the half marathon is only 2 months away? Damns

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I finished reading Two by Two by Nicholas Sparks
A surprising ending, I think I had tears welling up at 3am that morning I finished
Though he was asleep (I think) he put his hands around my waist and ask me if I'm okay
It was a very warm feeling for me

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Recently I'm reading the Handmaid's Tale
Kind of how I procrastinate
Surprisingly I saw it being mentioned on the Try Guy's Halloween video
that's how I got to know it
As a buy 1 get 1 half price deal, I got "Great Expectations" as well
KY bought them for me on New Year's day :)

I'm about 1/3 finished am already feeling depressed and dark LOL

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It's a day of missing people and reading literature :)
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