1月28日~~

I get tired so easily these days @@

After school today,
it was so hot when I drove, I was so tempted to doze off while trailing behind a big lorry.

My brain almost approve my behaviour,
when I blinked a little too long,
My brain tells me that maybe it's not such a good idea.
And I woke up

Was so determined to get a yoghurt meal and hit the gym
but ended up eating at the mamak and slept like a pig

was caught in a jam during break today
i always get nervous when I'm late
:/
like ALWAYS
:/

Poornima is quite blue after seeing Ms Anne
and she said the chat was confidential
so I didn't ask anything else
but we all bought her starbucks
cuz..
she needs it :)
she needs to be happy :D


today
got a piece of kit kat
that Jamie gave Albert and Albert gave me

thanks a lot ^^

the cards that Jamie made for the upcoming AGM
was absolutely classy
Love it to the max

was shocked when I heard Teng say that
Regina wants to join ed board
like for this intake
for graphics some more
O.O
such a bold choice when some of us (like me )
are already quitting

chose 6 pizzas for the upcoming AGM
lucky we still have the money

Saw so many pretty dresses and tops and bottoms on sale in Plaza Damas
 I really wanna go through them one by one and go shopping
but to say the truth, I never actually dared to buy anything
without my mum's opinion
she has more taste in fashion than me

I remember last time, she ask jean to come shopping with us
:3 tho, we didn't buy anything in the end
i'm quite picky ...I"m trying to look decent and girly (in a way)
with
1. small amount of cash
2. no pink
3. no flora patterns
4. too much lace

am interested in online shopping at the moment
tho.. I haven't done any :P

有眼福就好了

off to bed now
thanks liang .. for everything :)

PS.. today is world teasing day for everyone and a blushing day to me

Liang just say: 你害羞什么啊 ==

1月27日~~

有一种幸福
叫做被肯定  =)

顾问老师们的一句：谢谢，幸苦了// 非常谢谢你这几天的帮忙！ 以后请你喝星巴克
其实，已经可以抵消这几天招生的忙碌
 =)

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有一种幸福
叫做小事化无 =)

身边一位好朋友终于想告诉我
我在presentation要干嘛
他说：对不起，没让你帮到忙，就做完了。因为，你看起来很忙。

可能我真的很内疚
但我衷心地想说 ：
Thank you, Albert :)
For everything

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有一种幸福
叫做关怀

感谢妈妈，每天早上送我到门口，说再见，目送我离开
感谢良，每天发简讯给我说，小心驾驶
感谢爸爸，每天祝福我有个完美的一天

谢谢 ^^

---------

有一种幸福
叫做giving

很开心yee xuen 喜欢我给他的baymax, 生日快乐 ! ^^

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1月22日~~

The past 2 days, especially yesterday, were crazy

but life still has to move on .......
which is insane ..

Let me go through this chronologically

1. ECA drive
Have been preparing for this since a week ago
not a long time of preparation
but I trust we have done suffice
Really happy that shooting stars booth is just beside me
they're all my high school friends
so in a way ...
it's like high school again :)
I've successfully regained my passion towards ECA activities
right before the ECA drive
Nice to see I still had it in me to promote things
My conveyance of message in english has improved by a lot
compared to last year ...
when I first started speaking English on a daily basis other than Chinese
Some newcomers were nice and positive, some super determined as of what they want,
some were just plain mean ..
but then again, people are just people :)
It's okay to have doubts.. and it's okay to whine and complain ..
so long as you get the job done ..
It has successful
Rotaract club definitely deserve that best booth award
they really put in a lot of effort
but then again .. they have a LOT of july intakes hahhahahahhahah
ours ... are dedicated seniors :) .. I love my team ..
full of people that reminds me of ... my ex prefectorial board members
super amazing
good job guys
20+ people who have confirmed to join us ...
a lot of graphic designers.. for that .. i'm thankful

2. AS result
It's on the same day ... as ECA drive
when I was setting up the booth .
I heard some screaming going on downstairs around 2pm
(the time when the results were released )
I was determined to not check it
I wanted to wait till I get back home and then check it
so I don't have to wept all the way home..
and sulk through ECA drive
when I got home .. I told my youngest brother and mother to not talk to me for a while..
so that I could check my results asap
damn qigek
(yes.. I rushed home ASAP)
I even told myself .. that my basic goal .. is 3As 1 B (but I secretly want myself to get 4 As)
Apparently .. it was way better than i expected O.O
way better than my trials .... O.O
93- maths
88- biology
87- physics
86- chemistry
I haven't gotten these kind of results..
ever since...
I don't know when O.O
form 1?
It's really amazing... the change I've gone through in year 2014
I used to fail my maths in a way .. that I never thought it would be possible to pass .. ever... I've once gotten an average of 40 something ... .... failing all of my test ..

In form 4, I fail every single physics paper .. except the 1st and the last ... one High B of 78 and one Low passing mark of 60 (I screamed for joy that time.. that's why I remember that figure) .. PS.. I started failing at Form 2

In form 5, I cried in front of my chemistry teacher (first time I've ever cried in front of a teacher due to my poor results), when I got the worst grades in class for trials, thinking I can never get it right ..

As for biology .. I always thought its my strongest science subject .. since memorizing is all I could do to keep myself in the first class that time ..

and last year.. Biology became my worst subject.. getting 60+ close to 70 .. a low B .. I was quite frustrated.. knowing that I can actually score this.. I focused on Bio .. making my own notes for a week .. stopping only to eat, sleep, and bath .. and then finish all the pyqs for bio .. (and physics .. cuz I was scared of physics since I first started physics hahahha ) .. and that got me an 88 :)
It was shocking ... but I'm content ..
I really hope I think I have a clear shot for 4 As in A2 .. and hopefully .. more than just 1 A* .. :) ...

3. RIP uncle
right after i check my results.. I went on facebook to tell my friends that i've lost my bet..
it was the first post on my news feed
So straight away I went from super excited .. to super emo
so .. my feeling was quite ... neutral ...
=|
I can't smile.. cuz I'm quite close to this uncle
I can't cry.. cuz I haven't got over my shocking results for AS
Cancer...
It's just really sad and heartbreaking..
when you see your own father say something in a broken voice..
for 2 seconds ..
when he said how my uncle hung on to his life for 2 days
determined to stay alive...
that really almost got me in tears...
if it wasn't for my results
my dad told me to tell Yee Zhe
as much as me and him really wanted to pay our uncle the last respect
my dad just said.. life has to go on .. you can't just skip your classes
and with that .. he was firm on his decisions ..
he said .. we can 点香for him this CNY
I sincerely thought he would have more than a few months to live
since he looked sick, but was better than what I expected (too much TV i guess), the last time i saw him .. 2 or 3 weeks ago ...
Liang said I should see this in a different point of view..
that he's free from the torture of terminal illness ....

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I ended yesterday ..
with a complicated mixture of emotions..
I'm not keen in telling people about my uncle's death on results day
at the same time..
I can't just tell them I wasn't that all happy yesterday..
So I just said .. it was shocking and more than enough for me :)

I guess I can say I finally understand why I can't stop crying two days ago
when I quarreled over little things with liang ....
I don't understand why I cried for 30 minutes... when it's not like the end of the world
now.. I just prefer to see that as a sign..
ever since I heard my kaijie cried over the phone ..
this was what I wanted to do ..
cry.. because you can't do anything.. you can't help out.. and you still have to go on like nothing has ever happened ....
I'll remember him :) ....
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4. Friend in Hospital
I was quite worried when Cass told me she was in the hospital
and when Ms. Liew asked me if that meant she's admitted into the hospital .. or was she just visiting someone..
I seriously had my doubts..
u know.. since.. I just lost someone quite close
(come to think of it... I regret stopping to pray for the welfare of all my family members and close friends, going through all the names at night .... which I used to do for quite some time years ago.... prolly cuz it was a long list, and I made sure everyone faces came to my brain ... before I sleep)
After not returning any messages for 2 days ..
she WA me today that she got an appendix surgery
and she can't come till next week
was quite a relief to know she's okay (in a way)
I've learnt to look at life in a different view :)
especially since what dad told me about how my uncle hung on for as long as he can be
For every breathe you get to have ..
that's something that you should appreciate and be grateful about..
no matter if one is angry or sad ... happy or excited ..
you're given a choice to express.. don't let external things monopoly your emotions...
Cass told me she's walking like an old granny right now..
and .. hahahaha .. it's funny cuz she joked about herself
I promised to help her catch up with school work
though I doubt my ability to help her with Chem and Physics
which she should need more consultation from lecturers.. but I can just try

5. Getting my Security deposit back from Publika
I sent an email yesterday
A&P dept people
were so careful
and wanted a letter of approval from TCSH ...
I somehow doubt the efficiency of... ahem ahem people ...
since.. it took them 2 months to process.. a cheque.. @@
but then Albert told me to go to Ms. Lauren ...
and I'm like.. why didn't I think of that :D
she's like superwoman ...
I think it's prolly just because I am not used to talking to principals hahahhahaha
but then again.. it's not like everyone is used to it ..


Chem quiz tomorrow .
jiayou .

1月20日~~

小小偷懒
期待明天

有点害怕
毕竟明天AS 成绩出炉
有点期待
毕竟明天是ECA drive
最后第二个活动吧？
（不要算现在两三天做的平日事）

今天和jamie , joeyee 去 publika
parking的时候，
真的是恐怖到爆炸
park在一个3面都是墙的地方
我的sensor第一次叫得那么惨
难怪这种reserve parking没有人要

park 了好久
（我还要放他们先下）
因为太窄了，出不去

才发现。。。
明明就还有几个位啊~~何必纠结

到最后找不到要找的badge
反而找到以前想找的东西
于是。。
想起了一个很棒的礼物想送给良 ^^
谢谢你，这13个月的陪伴 这种又不long又挺long distance的relationship
真的不简单
很谢谢你一次又一次地容忍我的无理取闹，每晚陪我说话

在publika看到了1600熊猫  ♥
都差点忘了有熊猫
 :3
开心~

今天没机会吃午餐
第一次在basement carpark里兜圈子迷路
第一次跑去college跑到那么狼狈

才发现，其实，我们也没那么迟啊~

明天加油

1月18日~~

和良谈天
偶然想起
初三的那个班旅。。。

雨中游泳...
swimming in the rain
....
when the water feels warm
and the rain feels cold

....
还记得身边的好友都还很兴奋地玩着水上足球
导游拿着一把小雨伞催促我们快点上来

男生们还和老师玩多一场才上来
女生们都快点去多雨了

...
it's a very dreamy ... wonderful feeling :)
.. .

那天非常充实快乐疲累，
晚上在朋友们面前委屈地哭

一幕幕。。
再次回来了  :)

High school ..
....
where genuine friendships are forged
unforgettable memories are formed

:)

I miss school ..
all over again :)
because of these random memories
that might seem to make no sense to people
but a lot to me :)

1月14日~~

Quite tiring

I found my passion 

...
Its not completely there 

but hopefully suffice for me to survive another month of ECA

.... 

Ms. Lauren is really worried for us ~

but it's okay 

we can survive with just 2 busy teacher advisors
and

I know what i'm doing :) 

...

Good thing is 

we have a noticeboard for Editorial Board Job Description! 

Ms. Lauren seems a bit frustrated when we said we never knew there was a noticeboard for Editorial Board 

but she insisted .. 

so .. 

yay :D 

it'll be more important than the booth.. 

...

Finally emailed the BODs the recruitment and interview plans 

I can't believe it .. 

I'm finally (almost) going to step down! 

#feelingwonderful

frankly speaking I just hope that the next BOD will be given more guidance

so they don't make the same mistakes :( 

and give them bad memories / experiences :( 

..... 

I can't wait :D 

although,  a little more time would be better :) 

but still.. I was given a lot of time ..

just that I gave myself a little break hahhahaha 

.....

Joined the reading club :) 

Hopefully this will be the only club I join 

Since A2 is coming up 

reading club seems to be really flexible and you know.. 

you don't do much 

but read your favourite books at home :) 

so yea.. 

why not? 

It's cool :D .. 

I've been reading nicholas spark novels forever

maybe someone can give me more suggestions on books to read 

so I don't accidentally read books.. with .. you know... 

too much sexual interaction..  

it gets boring at one point@@ 

...

A2 started 

peer tutoring started 

I can't believe I can still tutor with a rusty brain :) 

...

Kaijie stopped by yesterday :)
Really a pleasure to have her here .. studying hahahha
she's applying master degree in medicine (In Malaysia of course :) ) ..
she says .. chances of getting in .. very low..
lucky she isn't married yet...
otherwise.. it will get even lower

... 

anyway 

加油哦良~

first day as 临教 seems so tiring for you 

I can't help much :( 

给你心灵上最大最大最大的支持  :) 

... 

UCL upgraded me to MEng :) 

same requirements : AAA 

I'm really happy they granted my request

I know they are :) 

1月12日~~

Rejected by Cambridge 

It's okay 

I don't really myself to make it that far 

even though, a tiny part of me 

sincerely hope I can make it 

The email came in unexpectedly, 

I was expecting an email for the conversion of my picture to a jpeg format from a free website

It was a surprise

I did not expect it to come that soon 

since I always thought they will send me hard copy instead of soft copy 

It's also a good thing 

because at that very moment I was fiddling with other ECA stuff 

sourcing for contacts 

and suddenly BAM

here it comes

I knew I wasn't good enough 

to be one of the best in the world

I knew.. But I still tried :) 

Even though, I lack of a lot of knowledge / experience that time 

I'm quite confident with my Imperial interview, 

for one reason and one reason only

I'm an A2 student now :) 

Double the knowledge,

Double the determination,
Double the confidence,
No ECA, With some experience :) 

Dad came down and just sat there beside me 

Disappointment spread across his face

He had so much faith in me 

So much, that I can only say thank you for being there for me :) 

Thanks everyone ... 

for consoling me 

and making jokes :) 

1月11日~~

Lots of things happened this week
cant remember much
but I remember having a really happy day ^^

Lots of early dismissals this week :)
that itself is a plus point :D

Have lunch with Andrea
after long chats and stuff
she got really happy ..
and decided to belanja me ><
felt bad .. in a way ...
but super thankful ...
she's awesome in her own way :)
have her own kind of stubborn determination
to finish copying my maths notes
and her story online :)

Realizing that Sidney Sussex College
didn't forget me :3
that was a relieve :3
I was so ganjiong I let it all out on Liang
he should be quite annoyed
cuz I can't stop making stupid assumptions
apparently... they just don't send emails out to their applicants
[PS.. they've sent out decision letters through postage................. :S may everyone forget to ask me .. and let me forget........... ]

Met a really kind hearted guy :)
It was raining .. and I was stuck in the gym (again)
I called mum to come and pass me an umbrella
so I had to wait for another 20 mins
this really nice guy came up with a tiny umbrella..
he was off to the gym too ...
and he stopped and looked at me ..
and asked me if I need the umbrella ...
he asked me twice.. cuz i rejected him the first time..
regretting almost immediately ....
he was super nice..
and after a while.. mum told me .. he was actually ..
one of my mum's friend's son O.O
20 of age.. nice kind person
thanks :D .. you kind kind soul :)

Photo slide video
something that I was so guilty afterwards
the resolution turned out really bad
because of the conversion of format
and I took a long time
cuz ...
I was being stubborn ...
and thought i can make a better video with after effects free template
liang had to search lots of templates for me .. and also a crack version of the programme
and i didn't use it .. cuz it was 11.30pm
joeyee told me the next day that.. she realize that if one is my close companion of the opposite gender
one must know..... everything = =
(whoopss) ...
the video was good.. but bad resolution :(
sorry admission officers.. I know that's important

First Chem Tuition
went to Jamie's house with Meghan ...
can't wait to get my car out of the parking lot cuz..
It costs a lot .....
very experienced female lecturer from Help.. in her early thirties (assumption)
went to 1 Mont Kiara for the 2nd time of the year
In a way .. Ms Lai reminds me of Mr. Lee ..
My first chem lecturer in tcsh
Really good
had her revised electrode potential with us
it was super fast .. yet surprisingly easy to understand
1 &1/2 hours of focus was very tiring hahahahha but makes me feel happy and satisfied...
after long hours of devouring knowledge

The Power of Hot Vanilla
It is official
that this will be my favourite drink :3
I told mum : This is how happiness tastes like :)

Worn through plastic shoes for the first time
"tamatlah hayatku" says my poor plastic shoes
I have no idea how I did that
but ... thanks for keeping my feet a few cm away from the dirty floor
for a year :)
(yes...I've worn them for just a year...... )

Meeting up with Liang :)
Haven't seen him in person for a while
It was really amazing that I can give myself a reason to look for him during his working hours
really proud that you've made it and will be a temporary maths teacher in chkl
for form 1 and 2 students :)
it helps with his recruiting of students for tuition classes :D in a way ....

Small classroom
was sitting with dudes for a week
and now the other side of the classroom
weird looking at the whiteboard at that angle
but get to mix around with both naveena(a)s again
they are nice people ^^

Next Physics presentation
will be hanging out with different people :)
but all really amazing ...
I just hope I don't screw up ><
4 guys and 1 girl (me)
thanks for asking me Albert :D
saves others from a lot of trouble

More ECA stuff coming up
RAWR..

Abs currently undercover xD
I can feel them .. but no one else can see them
....
one of my friends call that.. detective abs..
cuz it's undercover -.-
haha..
very funny

 Will be sending bro to hostel today
Jiayou in your MUFY course :D

1月4日~~

1.赈灾活动
自从家乡flood之后，就拥有同理心。明白为什么灾民不喜欢收到3-in-1 drink, instant noodle，没有电，哪来的热水？所以。
这次没有捐出这样的食物。而是捐2袋干粮干粮这样的。
此外，还有4袋衣物、1袋文具。
刚回家的同龄堂妹听说我要赈灾，昨天特地fb 我，建议我dry shampoo (可能她误会我是volunteer, but actually.. i'm just a donor)其实很不错。。但是一罐20多块~
but .. the opinion is truly valued :) 有心就好

2.Trip to the clinic
其实，重点不是我的B型肝炎预防针
是和医生他们一家人的聊天话题
他们对我的信心还真的是十足> <
ganjiong~
London的屋子都好贵  ~
他们开始帮我寻找acoomodation
有点不好意思  :$
启航说~A2 .. 就是要 keep studying
and you'll get it
爸爸终于明白为什么我从第一个字读到最后一个字
而不是挑重点
I can't just pass ... if I want to get in ..
I need to score....
不简单
but I need to do it

3. Colours of Africa Charity Dinner
竟然有free ticket 给我和 jamie O.O
有点愧疚
这个时候jamie 能去了
可我们真的不是因为 free ticket 而去
所以，可能会问他，能不能make a donation / buy a ticket
这样的。。
但是要确定he reached the intended goal
不然这free ticket我收不下手

4. Last month in Ed Board
3 more events...
- Orientation Party
- ECA Drive
- Charity Dinner for Colours of Africa

jiayou!
待会儿（明天）
会告诉他们这个消息。。。。
大家。。。卸任还需要些时间

昨天告诉自己：
我今年就要去英国了
The feeling is so surreal
我的生日还有1个月多就到了
It seems like only days have gone by when I just had my 18th Birthday Celebration
and now... I'm going to be 19 ..
super wow..
time flies.. when you're ... ehm .. ...
......
....
time just slips through my fingers.. thats all :)
如果我去英国的4年也能那么快过~
That would be awesome  :)

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Studying Bio
when I should be studying Chem / Physics

hmmm

My Love- Hate relationship with science subjects is growing stronger everyday
So is my passion towards it ..
strange feeling..
yet ...
wonderful :)
The feeling that you're actually learning something..
is absolutely amazing

1月3日~~

Had my cousin sister (of the same age) and her boyfriend (1 year older)
[they've been dating for 2 years +]

over my place these 2 days 

it was a pleasure 

really :) 

I haven't been able to talk to her like this since some time ago 

we were always withholding secrets 

at least... I am 

and I realize.. I might be the only one 

withholding more secrets

Girls-talking the whole night until 2.30am 

I seriously haven't girls talk in a while 

hahahhahaha 

but when she said: 我觉得对你我是没什么好秘密料的叻~
I was frankly quite taken aback 

I think her boyfriend heard most of our conversation since they didn't switch on their air cond 

they meaning her boyfriend and my brothers 

we went to e-curve 

where my friends promised me to take me to one day .. for laser tag, escape room, ice skating rink 

still haven't been to these places tho .. 

since it's 2/1 lots of people 

and I was told i don't need to place reservations / bookings

instead of singing karaoke.. which I haven't done in ages ever since I left high school ..

we went to watch : seventh son 

it was okay .. 

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finished application of physics 

it wasn't easy 

since.. I don't completely understand it .. 

need consultation when college reopens

------------------------

Heard from a friend

Cambridge will tell us if we make it or not by the 9th of January 

I'm not sure if it's just for her course or what .. 

---------------------

3 events in college this January so far 

Still need to cover it .. 

pretty sure there is another one for CNY too

but sigh* it's okay .. 

--------------------

1月1日~~

新的一年到来了！
在告别2014年的同时，
也向2015年打声招呼~

回首前，来写下新年愿望吧~
1. Full Time Nerd - 一定一定要专注在学校，起码2个A, 2 个A*但一定要付出全力！那种ohmf ..好比励志拿4个A*这样的付出！
2. Full Time Athlete -  去英国之前，拜托给我个好看的腹肌 :3
3. Cooking - 学会煮饭呗！好料在眼前

就这样  :) 不多不多。。。但可以专注 :)

回首时间到来

我就很快速地用numbering打过我的2014年吧
1. 第一次烫直头发：
才知道，原来柔顺的头发是多么致奋的

2. 探望靛团：
只是回去跳舞跳舞这样，算是种外援吧？

3. 回小学陪妈妈教舞蹈：

4. Orientation Day:
Amazing race，认识不同的人，也不太记得很多的人但活动很不错！

5. BS2 :
好大一个班（却又是我小学以来，进过最少人的一班）大家都很好 active, smart, amazing, kind-hearted bunch. 大家的目的就是考好成绩，进大学。目前，被称为nerd class , but ironically 充满着 Club presidents and board of directors...

6. ECA Drive
好多学会，却只focus 在DOT (当时，还很快乐地以为自己要走上医生路。。才发现另一个春天), 还加入了 dance club , shooting stars, Red Crescent Society,也 随手拿起 Editorial Board的报名表格..放弃学生会。。因为我不想忙了

7. Editorial Board:
轰轰烈烈，烈烈轰轰。。闯进了不属于我的地盘。英文proficiency不比别人强，但被看上成为了Editor - in - chief . 有个很棒的团队，大家都很不同的性格 but ! 都是为了校闻社 好。。做了好多的第一次。。但那个我们之后再谈 =)

8. Dance Club
其实，跳舞是一件很开心的事情。每次闷着的时候，听听音乐，就渐渐起舞，哈哈，就是乱乱跳舞的那种。Anyway, 学习新的舞蹈，也是很快乐的事情呵呵~

9. Red Crescent Society
被缠着，到最后还是加入了。没学到很多，因为后期被其他的学会弄得太忙了，总是撞到同一天（我的生命还是充满着活动。。 ）

10.Shooting Stars
充满中华生的学会，song yong 的学会。加入，当然，也是因为这个原因，supporting friends :)  本来是Public Relations Manager,到最后，因为editorial board的缘故，被迫停职呵呵~

11. DOT club
很大很大的学会（可以和学长团媲美，但又没有100人）也是我投靠editorial board的其中一个原因。哈哈哈哈，因为，没有机会发挥了。（还有，被T2 Points骗了~以为很重要很重要，才发现，原来我申请的大学都没在看 :( 当然，也没后悔啦）

12. Facebook Page: The Beacon Online ; Twitter Page: The Beacon Online
on - the- spot journalism ，我们创始了！很开心~虽然支持的朋友，都是中华的朋友 :3 ，然后他们feedback是，看到就scroll哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~but 算了~就让明年的人继续发扬光大吧！

13. Yearbook
校刊终于完成的时候，真的深呼吸了~虽然期中，2个顾问老师离开，然后一大堆的（听过我埋怨了，我也不想再埋怨了）。Instead of being blissful, it was more of a relief. 当senior说，比起去年的确好很多，我很开心。宝贝来的啊~哈哈哈哈

14. Creative Writing and Art Competition
很开心有那么多人支持^^ 尤其是art competition 的voting season .. the small exhibition was cute ^^ and just amazing, very eye catching I might add.... boxes were always full :) 朋友还在voting paper 里面搞怪 :3 从第一次筹办（这种学术性的活动）到拍照结束，我都很满足

15. Photography Project
也是第一次筹办那么抽象的活动。但的确比creative writing and art competition 容易，很开心到最后还是有很多人支持

16. Exhibition in Publika
过程有多幸苦不谈。但也是第一次筹办这样的活动。太多太多的第一次也许overwhelm 我一点点, 很谢谢愿意帮助的同学！很谢谢我很supportive 的校长! 虽然，没有想象中那么顺利（谈过程，谈结果）但到最后，还是完成了  :)

17. Performance for April intake Orientation Party!
不同的我见市面了！哈哈哈哈~代表着舞蹈学会，contemporary + hip hop..没有跳过这样的舞。之后还直接去介绍Editorial Board这样的。挺刺激。

18. ECA Drive for July intakes
主题：ties. 结果：不错！大家都很helpful ^^整个校闻社有很康乐的 feel

19. TCSH MUN Press Team: Editor- in - chief
这也是我第一次做这种那么报社的东西，每天出newsletter... 写article....设计这样的（学校很少人，没办法）3天。。大家非常有效率，第三天都不需要来 ^^ 。。主办的同学很棒（给她们一个赞, 没错，都是女生）第一次办MUN还可以那么 (y)

20. AS
恐怖。Fingers super crossed.

21. Interview for Cambridge
准备到自己压力到要爆炸~到最后，竟然问别的东西。（没有复习到~）还把表姐给我的cambridge interview书籍翻了几次。。第一次在不是课本的书上贴notes

22. UCAS
申请英国大学不是见简单的事情 personal statement，又是写又是改，我没有写很多次，but lucky enough to be suffice to get these current 3 conditional offers :) 有自己味道的文章，果然不一样。哈哈！

23. Easter Egg Hunt
差点忘了。刚刚进学院稳定下来的时候，和好几位朋友参加这个easter egg hunt，albert 策划的，当然就支持一下咯。虽然到最后，只是一堆apollo, but ... the experience is absolutely amazing :) 很好玩的说。预知更多详情，翻回去吧

24. Hot Air Balloon Fiesta
和shooting stars 出游去了！同样！第一次可以参与这种活动，拍短片。我长酱大，从来没有参与过短片（很好笑吧？中华很多这种活动，却总没机会参与到啊哈哈哈哈）。也是做Manager的一种（我忘了我的职位），但是我是负责写 script,安排props,写成一个表这样的。。。。和jia yan 一起负责的... tiring but fruitful :)

25. Ice Breaking for Shooting Stars
也是有机会和 event manager 的peizhi , oscar, jack 负责这个活动。但是，也是我最后一个在 shooting stars负责的活动:(((

26. Charms For Sale
Fundraising Campaign for Editorial Board. phew~以前在中华，都是做统筹的工作（没有做过筹委，就直接跳到统筹，有点点帅哈哈哈）profit: Rm900 ++ very very very good:)

27. In charge of booth for Famine 30 and Blood Donation Drive
2合一的写法~只是招生，没什么大不了。。。想要捐血，但当天突然来红 :( 就不能捐了。想要出席饥饿30却要出席同步进行的MUN.... that's life

28. Jog for Hope， Recruiting team
第一次参加Jog for Hope! 谢谢你陪我参加^^还有。。谢谢你帮我招生 :3 .......虽然我也有回去招生。。但大部分都是你的功劳 :3333

29. Monash Engineering Workshop
可以遇到从taylor subang / lakeside 的人，很多会说华文的人（有点小神奇，却又不怎么神奇的矛盾感），这个workshop 很适合要读化学工程系的人出席哈哈哈哈哈。。更何况。。。他们说的东西就是： water purification :3 (one of my favourite things about chem. engineering ... )
很多TCSH的中华生参加，所以，我很幸运 :)

30. Walk to Publika and Mont Kiara
今年来做过最无厘头，最热血的事情，就是这个了。很废。很废。

31. 中华毕业典礼
有多感触，不说。毕业快乐各位！加油！

32. CHKL Prom Night
谢谢你邀请我回去 ^^

33. TCSH Prom Night
大家问你在哪里。ticket 出现很多问题，不管我事的问题，却又非常影响到我的问题。没有拿到best club award.. 但也没什么 =) As I said, it's a relief enough to finish the yearbook. I'm just grateful enough that my club got nominated .. that's all .... :)

34. 第10届学领
外援。很开心有机会回馈我的母校 =)

35. 饶老师 wedding dinner
有机会谢谢老师，是我的荣幸。第一次做 plus one :$

36. My Birthday!
很开心。。虽然刚刚开学，就有人给我surprise party..妈妈也在家里给我惊喜~那天做最有意义的事情就是帮同班同学--thim 拉vote 生日。。做些有纪念性的东西是最棒的 :)

37. 差不多每个人的生日
都负责做卡片。。。默认料的。。哈哈哈哈哈。。就这样。。一个美术“麻麻”的。。就这样当上了很类似学术股长身份的人

38. ALS Ice Bucket Challenge
最终还是到我了。。。。谢谢你陪我一起做 ^^

39. 他的生日
Fail b'day surprise :'( 没有办法监督收感言的环节就是这样的咯。。谢谢香蕉小姐 ^^ went to aquaria klcc too :)

40.Random Gatherings and Lunch/Dinner dates
谢谢父母亲。。让我有机会出席/认识更多人。。有机会和不同的人谈天，是我的荣幸

41. IELTS
也是准备了很久，第一次把整本“字典”一样的 keywords前前后后翻了2/3遍，还贴了很多marking... 我第一次那么认真准备英文考试。。虽然成绩没有我预期中的好, but, hopefully, it's enough for cambridge (IF.... Cambridge even wants to take me in )

42.每个星期六的"tuition"
谢谢你~每个星期六成为我最期待的一天。。你依然是我的tutor... :)

43. 告诉父母亲我目前in a relationship
6月20日。。。我告诉父母亲，我目前有男友。。。他们竟然不知道（预料之外。。一直以为他们猜到）当时已经6个月了。。。讲的时候真的是很紧张很紧张。。。

44. 第49届实习学长// 荣休// 欢送会//卸任
说没有感触都假，但很谢谢他们依然拉我们进来/邀请我们回来。。Prefectorial board has been a big part of my life.... without them ... I wouldn't be who I am today ..... I'm so proud of you guys ♥

45. Mr. Kenny Farewell / welcome back party
一个很特别的老师。依然还有联络。Everything is new when you meet this fella.. haha!

46. Presentations / projects
大家都很合作~ 都很认真，绝对没有推卸责任的事情（也能说，我的groupmate 真的很好）其他同学有没有面对这种问题我就不知道了。。但我没有 ^^

47. Maths/ Chem Competitions
目前，只有 Euclid Maths Competition ,有带来一点荣誉[distinction...全校5名以内]。。其他都没有= =谢谢良陪我一起做 AMC past year question。。想跟朋友分享，却很无奈地。。我的pyq 都是华文的。。=( ... 化学的话。。。。。我死光光。。hahahahhaha都说了嘛~。。。。。。。。。我真的没有很好

48. Maths Workshop
帮忙lecturer给没有add maths 底的同学放学后补习。。。大致上都很不错的感觉 =) 。。别了。。。。我以前数学差到一直不及格= = 。。对我来说。。可是荣誉也~

49. Peer tutor
for chem and maths但是目前为止。。朋友都没有问我chem hahahahhahahahahahha == ..我会好好加油的。。对不起各位 ..其实。。我已经拿到了certificate 料，毕竟。。已经补了超过16个小时（2个人，每个8个小时以上）

50. Self-Learning Photoshop
2天。。从来没想到。2天就够了。。。

51. 百年树人 // 园游会 // 义卖会// 演出
回中华帮忙。。再次申明，这是我的荣幸 ^^ ...Good JOB GUYS! ... amazing ideas... amazing people... :) 园游会也很棒。。。然后。。他也有表演/ 负责园游会/ 负责义卖会 。。。 所以。。整天就和蔚粘在一起咯  ^^  很开心~可以再次和她聊天逛街。。just like old times

52. Hospital Attachment
Gastroenterologist (Tropicana Hospital) 私人医院的医生很忙，和良一起hospital attachment ...
我还是觉得很神奇很微妙~but .. 那时，决定不要读医科了~ 虽然可以救很多的人命，but 医生， kaijie,舒涵姐姐，dr. leong等人的话。。。让我知道。。我真的不能做这行。。。。我对生命的离别特别敏感。。2，3天带着这种愁绪。。我会疯掉~。。。。I can take the pressure ... but not this emotional pain :) I can't bear to look at people take their leave to the other world while their family and friends cry by their bedside... I just can't

53. 支持戏剧学会的比赛
朋友嘛~就支持一下镇杰他们咯~again .. thanks 妈和良for accompanying ^^很不错噢！！！！还拿到奖的说^^

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53 points about my life in 2014

The amazing thing is even after being in a school filled with 5000 people back then in high school .. you'll still be fascinated by the people you meet everyday ....
with different personalities
different beliefs
different perspectives in life and anything else actually

I've learnt that ... even if you're in a fancy schmancy college (haha)
you'll never forget that independent school ..
that requires you and your classmates to go ask for donations..
paint your own walls....
look for sponsors (believe it or not, it was way easier back then =) ....)....
etccetcetc.....
where they taught you knowledge ....
where they indirectly taught you that it's okay to fail ...
and yet still give you the confidence to take on the world ....

And that if you work hard enough
........
you'll get whatever you deserve to get =)

Back then I told myself (I'm quite positive that most of us made the same promise)
that ..
one day ...
I'll come back and give back to my school =)

TCSH has been great...

I miss hanging out with my friends in a tiny stall in Mutiara.. ordering the same food over and over again .. cuz .. butter chicken rice :3
I miss having meetings in Secret Recipe in Mutiara, where we just order (and share)a few drinks, and sit there for a couple of hours just because they have air cond. there
I miss going into the disciplinary master's room just to have a brief chat, and she cracks a few jokes to the very scared juniors who got called into the disciplinary department (she is a wonderful lady, well- respected by students)
I miss my friends.. who gave me the time of my life.. :) with all those random gestures.......
 like buying me a tiny snack ... just because I miss lunch ...(Thankyou albert, joeyee, meghan... for doing that to me too ♥ )
 like .. a lot of stuff.... oh man .. I just can't wait to share them all out .. cuz those are the sweetest memories a girl can ever get :)

To my special you :)
Thank you ....
for everything you've done for me ...
You are my motivation
for everything and anything :) ♥
You know what I want to say .. so i'll just cut off here :P

Anyway ...

ALL THE BEST 2015!!!
TIME TO FIGHT FOR THE FUTURE!!!!!