5月24日~~

8.19pm

Some days are particularly hard for no reason

This is one of them

I should start tattooing across my arm to bite my lip

Because I will build up resentment regardless anyway

Might as well be only one person that suffers

And I have a lot and I feel it too. 

I feel like a little ticking time bomb in me that is accelerated through the lack of sleep 

I am exhausted mentally physically 

I feel so alone

On a different note yee yan sang whisky stinks 

5月23日~~

My baby boy's first word is "mama"

 :)

5月19日~~

8.45am

The juxtaposition of a working mom working on a taxi

Because one moment I'm figuring out the financial statements, compound interest rates, bond rates 

Another moment immediately im googling inflatable bath seats

Will my mind ever shut down? 

5月11日~~

The only person that gets me out of work mode is my baby. 

Unless there is something severe that needs my attention. I just put it off and wait for the complaint that never really comes. Which means, i am doing fine with the hours I have. 

Which also means, ive been overworked before this. 

Its 5.45pm i left work at 4.50pm. 

I am 25 minutes away from reuniting with my husband and son. I replay videos of my son and smile like an idiot on the train.  

As the days goes by, I think to myself. Its not as bad as it is. Maybe I can survive this rather inflexible-on-paper work setup. 

Because I have still been able to make it for drop off and pick ups.