10月27日~~

7.18am - 

Exactly one year ago on this day, we ran the full marathon at sunmoonlake in Taiwan and experienced our first earthquake post-run. 

And today, we are going to check-in the hospital before we meet our little bou tomorrow. 

Life changes and moves fast. 

As I woke up today, I wondered to myself, is this the last time I'm going to feel this way? Worry-free, and only doing mental math on what time I slept last night + what time i woke up today just to answer "have I slept enough as a person on a holiday"? 

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10月24日~~

I'm scheduled for a caesarean section next Tuesday

I had a week of mental preparation but it's only confirmed today. Last Friday, we found out that he is in breech position but the amniotic fluid was low, so his chances of turning is lower. 

I'm relieved that there is a yes/no answer to how will I give birth and when I will give birth (down to the hour and day)

I'm worried if he'll be healthy, but then again, I've been worried since the start of the pregnancy, so I assume this will be a lifetime of worry. 

I'm worried if he will turn out fine, but i also assume this is a lifetime of worry. 

You know what's surprising? Before I got pregnant, I thought I'd be more engrossed about losing myself, but it's overshadowed by the worry and excitement of what's next. 

Humans are really wired to make sure that the next generation is healthy huh? Fascinating. 

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My belly is harder everyday, it feels more like a ball that is not mine

10月2日~~

In the last 2 days I realised that I tired much more easily. 

It only takes a thinking meeting or anything that requires brain power to completely exhaust me. 

In fact, I stay exhausted for the rest of the day and in a state of daze. 

At first I thought it was from low blood sugar. 

Drank milo which helped a little, but i immediately went back to low-energy mode, without the energy to get thinking.

It's really bad. 

 Colleague suggested that I be kinder to myself given I have another month till I deliver. 

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Oh ! And my blood sugar level is getting higher at night although the way I consumed food hasn't really changed.

The doctor was right, what works a week or 2 ago may not work anymore. I just got to keep experimenting. 

So I guess I need to eat even lesser at night and earlier too. 

 Fascinating